I was up all night last night as I could not sleep. Not because I was not tired, it's just that my mind was going on and on, thoughts were running through my head and I was trying to figure out things about myself, about my life as a husband, a professional and as content creator. Recently I did have a lot of thinking about all the things above and the more I think the more my brain end up in an infinite loop of mess. I usually get things sorted, but it's a bit tricky this time round. I reached a point in my life that I have to concentrate on things that really matters.
Being on YouTube and twitter is fun, but it is a lot of work too. I know when you see a video popping up from me every week it's kinda regular. The average length is about 8 minutes, it's easy to produce it, just talk, edit, add some picture and boom, done. Well, that 8 minutes takes usually up to 6 hours - sometimes not including upload time that thanks for our internet provider can take hours. :S Well, hopefully that will change soon. Anyhow, even though I enjoy talking about Star Trek, discovering and covering characters from various TV shows I feel that I miss something from the content that I'm producing. Somehow that "spark," that "life" is fading out and I don't like that.
As a professional, as a graphic designer I do my best as well, but lately I've found myself being "obsolete" in a sense. I was trained as a designer who does design and I think I do a good job when someone ask me to create a logo, an artwork or even YouTube profile. I love doing those things, however as a professional in today's world when there are templates that you can fill out, and you say "I've designed it" I'm not needed any more. I do love creating, but I've found that I love doing that for myself and for close friends even more.
As a husband I really enjoy the time that I spend with my wife. Travelling to places, cooking together, watching a movie or TV series together, planning our future... all of those things that I don't really talk about in my social media channels as I try to separate personal life with the hobbies that I do. I certainly did not start making videos or writing this blog to put my life out there, but to share my passion about the things I love, free of charge. :) Planning our future is really exciting and there's a few big thing that is going to happen soon with us starting from new jobs and a relocation that does preoccupy our mind. I personally find myself in position that the life I have outside YouTube and social media in general it is something that I want to focus on, more than ever.
So I guess by the end of this you kind of realised what I'm about to say here or do next. I'm going to take some time away from my channel and from social media in general. I think it's time to switch off the camera and let things go for a while. I will not delete any of my videos, the channel will be up and running, so does this website that I'll try to get back to in a regular basis, but from July I'll be less active in the community. I'll be back for sure and hopefully in the meanwhile I will be able to participate in other channels as a guest like Trek on the Tube or StarfleetBoy just to mention a few. But my priority is my life, more than ever. I'm not sure what will happen when the Picard series will come out or the new season of The Orville and Discovery, but I will worry about that when we are a bit closer to the date. In the next few weeks till the end of the month I will publish a few more planned videos, but from July this will pause for a while...
I must say a massive Thank You for everyone who supported me ever since. I know a lot of you being my faithful subscriber from Day Zero and some of you even read my blog that I'm still super happy about. I'll be back one day with new content and maybe a better production value, but until than I wish you all the best and as always... Live Long and Prosper. _\\//