So, it's been about a month now since I've last wrote anything... weird, but a lot has happened in March in many level. Work related stress and anxiety certainly took over the month with even more side hustles to do, also giving some room to reflection and how to move forward with life. It is really quite complex when it comes to my own life and sometimes it's even more difficult to get things sorted. Change and more so fundamental change takes time... and encountering the past is a part of individual growth as well.
In my last post I've been writing about my plans for 2021, how I will proceed with a limited video series and how things will progress as well. I have at one point mentioned that I'll be making videos on a few of my childhood possessions that I was - at the time - waiting to arrive from home. That few boxes have arrived ever since and I have had the chance to actually go through and reunite with my past. I've tried making videos out of some of them, but later I have realised that really the connection what mattered with these things the most. In the spirit of that, let's see what these possessions were and what their destiny has become.
How it began...
I was about 11 years old when I got introduced to Star Trek... so really since 1998 I was a big fan. At the time with the lack of internet access and conventions I've got nothing but to collect the pictures from TV guide and random goodies from the thrift shop I was able to find. I drew more than before even though I was not good at it. I loved drawing the Voyager from every angle based on stills from the episodes I recorded in VHS... I know, I'm old.
It was really about around 2007 when I had a chance to get my hands on some "serious" things when it come to collecting. Internet services were more popular than and widely accessible from home and with the blooming of online marketplaces I have been able to find some unique collectibles such as a Star Trek tie with Kirk, Spock and McCoy on it, I think I actually used it once in the past and I still have it for some reason. I've found things like a Bubble Bath bottle in the shape of the Enterprise D, was able to purchase my very first TOS communicator that I still have, a few smaller and very wonky models of the Enterprise and even more pictures and magazines that no one needed any more. I think it was around 2009 when I've started seeing some Playmates and Diamond Select / Art Asylum models popping up online... that's when I got my collecting habit up to a very serious level. My first one was the Playmates USS Defiant that I loved soo much. I have had a plastic TOS Enterprise model as well I salvaged from a classmates attic once, but this was a whole new level of excitement.
Later on I've found and collected a few more, namely the Deep Space Nine station, multiple Enterprises from TOS, a refit Enterprise, followed by the B, D, D Future and finally Voyager. Now all these models were big and came with sound and lighting effects that I adored soo much. They all featured something from the respective TV series / movies and they were just amazing to look at on the shelf next to each other. I have spent countless of time just looking at them and wondering of the adventures I've seen on screen and also imagining those stories further.
Leaving them behind...
In 2013 I have left home and with it my entire collection, stored away in their boxes safely. I have not seen them for a good eight years now and been dreaming to reconnect with them for a while. I always have told to myself that these models will stay with me forever... but a lot has happened in this time period. Living in London in a house share and with minimal budget every day is literally a fight to get your life from A to B and so forth. When Eaglemoss started their line of ships I've got very excited as finally you can have a bite size ship on your desk that does not break the bank, so naturally I've started collecting a few myself along with other things. Years passed by and the models I've left home became more and more of a childhood memory. I often looked at the pictures I've took of them and thought about the memories they brought into my life... so many good memories.
Letting them go...
At some point in 2020 I have had the intention to ship them from home to our place we settled in with my wife. A lot of discussion with my parents led to them surprising me with the news that they have boxed them up and sent them out to me. I was excited and worried as well as we all know how postal services can be very "difficult" when it comes to handling precious cargo. All fears aside I have got all of them here safe and sound just at the beginning of March.
When I opened the boxes a lot of memory broke to the surface from the past and suddenly I felt myself that 18 year old boy who seen these models for the first time. Quickly placed batteries in them and have been listening to the sound effects while admiring them in the fully lit glory. But something has changed. As I have looked at these models with a more mature mind I realised that they no longer mean the same to me as they were before. It's not that their presence did not give me joy, but the fact that I have changed my collecting habits and my view on personal possessions and collections showed them in a different perspective. These models are simply memories of my childhood and very dear ones. Not seeing them for the past eight years have not changed my perception of the fact that how much I loved or rather how much I still love Star Trek. These items gave me joy when I was young and they were part of my memory for longer than I actually happened to seen them in the flesh.
I think the end of this is quite obvious that the next step of this process is to letting these models go and let them find a new home. Even though in physical form they will not be with me any more those memories and those times I've spent with them are never going to go away. Keeping and collecting non-material memories are way more important than collecting stuff.
It's the end?
You might be asking me "Gary, now that you sold all my childhood collection, what do you have left?". Good question and I still have a few items that I have been holding onto... I am not getting rid of everything, but minimising the collection is something I started a few years ago and slowly going through and refine as time passes by. I will be sharing the notion behind that in a future article as well, but for now let's just close this one with an appreciation to the models I've had and now found their new home.