I had something in my mind about this this subject for a while now but I never really had the "kick in my backside" to write it out from myself and make some sense of the whole issue. So there we are, right here, right now. The issue what made me think a lot, why do we ever want to be someone who we are not? Ok, that's sound a little odd I know, but if you think about it. We all have friends, family around. We all follow media and famous people. We all want to be someone who we are not. But at the end of the day non of them really counts. We are who we are and we should be true to ourselves. Family usually set up standard for us while we grow to become an individual. That's all good and I'm soo glad and thankful for my parents for how I've been raised to be the person who I am today. I've never really had a lot of friend and the very few who know me they always appreciated me for who am I! Althought I know there's a lot of people out there who try to chance how I look. They say it's for the better... but is it really? Or this is the way how they want You to look? Our personality the choice of our surroundings or ourselves? I believe if we know who we are, we should be always true to ourselves. A recent haircut expereince made me realize that more then ever...
So You asking what happened....
If you happened to know me before this whole "website left the spacedock" or you kept following me on YouTube and reading my occasional nonsense in this website you probably saw a few picture of me. In the last few 3 years I always had long hair. Despite the fact as everyone told me I look better with shorter hair I have to say I totally disagre. I know myself and having a long hair maybe not as cool and macho as some of the people think about it, but I always thought "I don't care" it's totally up to me how I like my hair and how long is it. I never had longer hair though than shoulder-lenght. But between mid-long and shoulder was the optional. This time I went soo far: 9 months without seeing my barber was quite a time. I knew I had to go and make some changes now, at least a tidy up would be great. As I always had problem to explain the look what I'm looking for - not that I'm incapable just I don't want to sound silly - so I normally bring a few picture to show them what I want. I did the same this time as well. I thought I will go there I show them the picture what I like - which was a 11th Doctor Who Matt Smith look - and I'll get it. So here's what happened:
Left to right: how it was, what I wanted and what I end up with... fantastic! :(
As you can see the lenght of my hair actually got shorter then expected. Coming from a longer hair-style it's not easy to look at the mirror and be proud of how I look now. For most of you this could sounds very stupid, but if you had a long hair before and you suddenly cut it you understand me. Sadly my face has never been very sharp, rather rounded and having a long hair made me realize my "cuteness"... now a lot of my friend told me I look much better with a shorter hair... but I don't really feel it right now. I know it's just hair and it shouldn't be a big issue as it will grow back soon. There's no chance to go to the barber again any time soon... ;)
So what is the whole point of this?
I know, now you think why do I make such a "big issue" out of this haircut? "It's a not a big deal, it will grow back and you can have it long again!" What I've learned from the whole process is more then regreting a haircut. It's to be true to myself... and off course be much carefull next time. :) The most important thing is to hear you inner voice and be true for the person who you are. People has their idea of how everything should look. Your family tells you what you should do, your friends shaping your life and your over all look with their opinion and suggestions... but if you know who you are and if you know what do you like don't give up on yourself. What you stand up for, your very own personality it's what makes you unique. Be yourself, do what you like and take care of the things what you really love. Your friends and the people around you will like who you really are, not for the person who they want to see you as. So if you like your hair long? Be proud of it! :) You like your so called "dumbphone"? Stick with it! You like to make mistakes and try to correct them? Make it so! ;) Never underestimate the power of learning from mistakes. ;)
Live long and prosper _\\//